res·o·lu·tion [rez-uh–loo-shuh n]
- a formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization, a legislature, a club, or other group. Compare concurrent resolution, joint resolution.
- a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something.
- the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
- the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.
- the act or process of resolving or separating into constituent or elementary parts.
Sounds painful. Note the repeated use in the above Dictionary.com definition of some form of the word “resolve”. That’s not actually very helpful.
verb, -solved, -solv·ing, noun
- to come to a definite or earnest decision about; determine (to do something): I have resolved that I shall live to the full.
- to separate into constituent or elementary parts; break up; cause or disintegrate (usually followed by into ).
- to reduce or convert by, or as by, breaking up or disintegration (usually followed by to or into ).
- to convert or transform by any process (often used reflexively).
- to reduce by mental analysis (often followed by into ).
Ah! Now we are getting somewhere!
Those who know me even just a little, can appreciate my determination: once I’ve resolved to do something, I’ll darn well git ‘her dun. Think, ‘want something done, ask a busy person” and that’s me.
I have noticed this year, however, that the New Year’s Resolution scales have tipped off balance (and yeah, not just metaphorically) because the excitement and energy put forth into setting new goals, no longer compensates for that inner regret and remorse in realizing, yet again, they will remain unaccomplished.
I am finding the predictable torrent of everyone’s lists of goals and resolutions this year are just a little more intimidating than they are inspiring. My out-loud voice is saying, “That’s an amazing Resolution! That’s great! You go!” and I really mean it, but the voice in my head is actually wondering, “Really? How are you going to accomplish all that??” I continue to be energized by everyone’s passion in their New Year Resolution-making mirth but I seem to be a little more mindful of the obligation that comes with the next step… uh … carrying them out.
See, my plate was already pretty full up in 2011, so how in the name of New Year’s Resolutions and God Almighty do I think I can accomplish more in 2012? Especially when 2012, and the world as we know it, is going to end on December 21? Not that those 10 extra days would help, but I think it’s best if I just sit this one out, stand on the sidelines and cheer on everyone else’s fist-slammin’, list-makin’, weight-liftin’ ,picky-swearin’, pour-the-bottle-down-the-drain,goal-making Resolution Fever. Wait a minute, you’re not really going to pour those leftovers down the drain, are you?
Yes, this might make me seem a tad pessimistic, like my glass is not half full but half empty (come to think of it…), and maybe even a touch lazy, but let’s instead call it my age of acceptance.
I lead a very busy life, and it’s pretty darn fulfilling. If I make room for even just one New Year’s Resolution, something’s got to go to make room for its achievement. And I’m not sure what that would be, or if I’m willing to do less of it, or not be part of it at all.
I read somewhere that people who break resolutions are weak; those who make resolutions are fools. Thus, my pledge for 2012 is to stop being a foolish weakling! There are things that have to get done, and I will get them done … there are things I want to get done, and I will get most of them done. My plan is to enjoy the road I’m on…wherever it goes…
There! I guess I did make a New Year’s Resolution after all: More of the same, please!
So, cheers to all you ardent Resolutionists, and cheers to the rest of us too….